Tips on overcoming “laziness” because of nervousness?

發表於四月 7, 2020 經過行政和評論關閉

A little background for have a better understanding of. TL ;D R at the bottom.

I’m in my twenties, showing signs of depression since I is rather kid but, overall, I would always be capable of functioning as a human being. One of the things that could originate me not go down was employment, I was a workaholic.

Since my teenage years I would expend hours upon hours acting and studying and seeking my diversions. It was the only thing way I got to find to avoid studying too much about myself. On my first college, I would study from 7am to 11 am, get to work at 12 pm to 9pm, study on the way home, do my homework, some housework, practise whatever I is ready to and sleep about 4 hours to get up in the morning again.

I was addicted to achievement, to be seen as someone trustworthy and to have my own money. Of route it intention up wearing me down.

Cut to 2015. I quitted college, was dating a gentleman that tried to control every step I take, my boss impelled me took care of her business all by myself without any salary increase, they both would fight for my experience. I couldn’t take it anymore and I turned to madness. I went profoundly depressed, making ponderous meds and anxious.

That same year I would have my first serious suicide struggle. Went to a psychiatric facility, invest a few months there. Came back home and invested my days afraid of going outside, having daily panic attacks.

My ex impelled me to work for him, I couldn’t keep it. Buyers would call me and I would cry, shake, sweat and pull my hairs out. Since then, I couldn’t keep a health planned but I ain’t wielding anymore, I went back to college and now that my trips are over, I can’t stand the idea of coming back.

I bought expensive system to work from dwelling but I’m sabotaging myself and not getting any buyers. I’m living on my mother’s kindness. I devote my daylights disengaging and looking at the computer screen not having any work done. I don’t go out, I don’t ascertain my friends, I don’t even talk on the phone.

Last year( 2019) was the first year ever I had to go out, wreak and go to college almost everyday. When december came I couldn’t get outta my berthed, I became extremely ill, more obsessive and agitated than ever, sleeping more than 12 hours or less than 3 , not eating for 3 daylights and binge dining all I could on the fourth. I am afraid I can never gain the insure of my life back.